Relationships are Complicated

So I was thinking again the other day about relationships. I mean I am not forcing you to read my blog, and my insight may or may not be right, but to be able to freely type my thoughts and share them is pretty amazing!
Relationships are complicated in general  ..right? I dated my husband for two and half years before marriage, and it was...well...complicated at times.

Got Purpose?

I was reflecting today on an incident that happened back this last summer. I would venture to say it would have been called the "brink of death" for me. I was eating some venison steak one evening, as it seems to me that I have been on a low carb diet called the Primal Blue Print for six to seven months. Venison is a very dense steak and tends to be a bit drier. For anyone that does not know what venison is, it is deer meat. I absolutely love venison...especially a doe. This particular evening, my husband and I was enjoying a venison steak, when I took a bite a bit too big.

My Old Friend...Inner Turmoil

This story is referring back to an incident that happened last week to me. I have these beautiful American Indian choker necklaces that my husband bought for me, that I absolutely love. I have 2..one is black with the white bone..the other is brown wood-like beads with black. I chose to wear the black with brown and I went to town, into Walmart..thinking nothing of my amazing necklace...but someone else did. I noticed some folks were looking at my neck. Now please don't think me vain, but I am sure any woman reading this blog will agree (if she is honest with herself)  that she has been there...she has felt this at some point. We all have....

Uh, Oh..Cars go Boom, Boom!

Have you ever been in a vehicle when it hits another vehicle? You know that awful crunching sound from inside the car that screeches and screams, breaking and tearing away at plastic and glass. Yeah..that sound. One memory I have of that sound is when I was living in Jacksonville Florida. I was in a parking lot with a little two year old boy in the back seat that I was watching, saying over and over,as another car was whirling towards us....uh oh cars go boom, boom! Yes its an unforgettable sound. And yes..cars went boom..boom! Once you have heard it and the fear that it creates in your body, you never forget it. Yes...that is exactly how my day began today.

This is a Hold Up..Hand Over the Backpack!

Do you relate to the picture? I mean as a mother, wife, daughter, sister, grandchild , and as a woman do we ever feel that way? When I seen this picture today, it truly said how I was feeling today. Why do we  take on the "weight of the world" anyways? Is it expected by others, or are we our own worst enemies?

Lessons from Mammoth Cave

You know its funny, I was out running the other day thinking of a new blog post, when I remembered our trip to Kentucky to the Mammoth Cave. You wonder why I would be thinking about a big dark cave..right? There is this one particular moment at the beginning of our tour, that most sticks out in my mind.

Can this bring me serenity in 2012?

Well here I am beginning a new blog for the 2nd time in my life. Just typing that makes me feel like I have lost, before I have even began. Is that possible to lose before my first sentence is even typed? Mentally yes, but inside something burns for serenity, for an anger free life, for softer answers, peace, quietness when needed...those times when you need to just shut the mouth and let feelings pass before they begin. I have decided to let go of anger and disappointment this year of 2012. Yes..its a quest to defeat the foe that most defeats me in a days time..the foe of anger, aggravation and impatience. We all have those times that we let our husbands or wives down, our children, our family and most of all ourselves, when we just "blow it" again...blow our top...let lose and then you sit back afterwards and think to yourself that all they needed was just some understanding, someone to just hug them and say "its all right". Well I stand today, for this year in my life and type it out. Yes this quest will not be easy..when I look ahead in days to come and let myself down, but I truly want to see it typed out those days that I triumph through Christ, overcome and seize the serenity that is most needed in my heart. I ask you to walk with me...I desire to see the simple pleasure in life...reminding me that serenity is possible.