Can this bring me serenity in 2012?

Well here I am beginning a new blog for the 2nd time in my life. Just typing that makes me feel like I have lost, before I have even began. Is that possible to lose before my first sentence is even typed? Mentally yes, but inside something burns for serenity, for an anger free life, for softer answers, peace, quietness when needed...those times when you need to just shut the mouth and let feelings pass before they begin. I have decided to let go of anger and disappointment this year of 2012. Yes..its a quest to defeat the foe that most defeats me in a days time..the foe of anger, aggravation and impatience. We all have those times that we let our husbands or wives down, our children, our family and most of all ourselves, when we just "blow it" again...blow our top...let lose and then you sit back afterwards and think to yourself that all they needed was just some understanding, someone to just hug them and say "its all right". Well I stand today, for this year in my life and type it out. Yes this quest will not be easy..when I look ahead in days to come and let myself down, but I truly want to see it typed out those days that I triumph through Christ, overcome and seize the serenity that is most needed in my heart. I ask you to walk with me...I desire to see the simple pleasure in life...reminding me that serenity is possible.